I do have to start out by saying that I apologize if most of my blogs have to with running or sports. But this seems to be my inspiration for writing right now.
Last Saturday Bryan and I went out for a run before Christian's basketball tournament. I hadn't ran 4 miles since last December so I wasn't totally looking forward to it especially in this Texas heat. When we got to the park, I realized that I forgot my ipod. This is a sin in my book. I have to have music to run. Those of you that know me, know that music is a big part of my life and I listen to everything. If you grabbed my ipod, you would hear everything from Kid Rock, to George Jones, to Donna Summer to Disciple mixed in with a little Bob Marley. So needless to say, I was not looking forward to a run without my tunes. Bryan told me that it would be a good time for me to pray. Pray? Really? I don't mind praying but I can't do it when I am running. I will usually start out by saying "Lord help me to endure, give me strength." Then I usually start singing something like "Humpty Dance" or something totally not something I would sing in church.
Despite the lack of music, I had to put my big girl panties on and run anyway. Surprisingly, I made it through and caught a little perspective along the way. I was asking the Lord to help me finish the run. As I began to ask for this, I felt some conviction. I though about all of the unfinished projects in my life. Sure I can name things at my house that are unfinished. In order to protect my husband, I will not call him out on such things. But I know that I have pictures scattered all in my front room that I have been needing to organize and put away. They have become such great decorations for the floor. I have used items that are piled up in the garage that I need to either tag for a garage sale or just donate. While all of these things need to get done and I need to get disciplined about doing them, I am more concerned with all of the things I have not finished regarding the Kingdom.
A while back I started writing letters to people who had influenced my life and had planned to mail those out to them. I have yet to complete them. I have made so many promises to God that I know I have failed to keep. So there I was asking the Lord to help me finish, to help me endure and I realized that there is so much I haven't done for Him that I said I would. Now I know that we are not saved by our works but when we follow God we want to do good things and are often prompted to do them too. I am humbled by His grace and I am thankful that His love for me is not based on my performance. I am grateful that just because I don't keep my promises doesn't mean that He doesn't keep His. He reassures me that even though there are things that I do not finish, He still believes in me and will equip me with all that I need to finish. He doesn't write me off just because I fail to complete what I initially set out to do. Instead, He takes me right where I am and gives me another chance.
I have so many dreams and so many things I want to do and be in life. I want to be a better wife and mother and I am daily working on that. I want to learn to say "I am sorry" more often. I want to not get tired in being the bigger person. I want to be in a position to bless people and encourage them with my words and my finances. I want to read my bible more. I want to never go a day without praying. As I write these sentences on paper, I can't help but think that I am going to screw this up. Just today, my stomach hurts and my head is full of the stresses of life. And I want to sit down and play candy crush all night just to clear my head. But instead, I am writing this to bring some healing to my own heart and mind.
I ask you to look into your own life and see if there are any "unfinished" projects. Are there things you have started that you want to finish? Are there promises you have made that you were unable to keep? Is there someone in your life that you have put on the back burner that may need you right at this moment? Are there dreams you have that you have buried beneath your current circumstance? Know today that God knows exactly where you are at in life. He knows your current situation. He takes you right where you are and gives you all that you need to pick back up. He always keeps his promises and He never fails us. We are like unfinished clay that the potter is continuing to sculpt to create a beautiful masterpiece. Just as God doesn't give up on us, we should never give up on becoming more like Him. Whether it is a walk, a jog, or a full out sprint, make sure you finish the race. The reward will be more than we could ever fathom.